Becoming A Stepparent

It’s an interesting thing, stepping into a child’s life in such a role after it has already been going on without you for some time.

How is it possible to love this human so much?

Sometimes I feel so deeply within me that I have come to where I am...simply for her and I to be in each other’s lives. Other moments I have absolutely no idea what I am doing.

I see so much of myself in her (if that’s possible), and I am learning so much about myself through her.

She helps me to focus my awareness towards what is important in life… to let go of so many things that are not.

She’s helped to teach me when to keep silent and when is best to use my voice.

She has helped me to fall deeper into love with patience, and to find balance in the freedom of play.

She has taught me a new way to listen, a new way to love.

In a way, I am learning to parent myself through her. To hold compassion for parts of myself that had not seen it before.

I’m sure she has it much more figured out than I do, and she is helping me to unlearn so much of what no longer holds true.

Sometimes we just sit together in silence, and I know it's the deepest communication I have ever experienced with another human.

We are still getting used to one another…but we are figuring it out together, and every bit is absolutely beautiful.

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With much love and gratitude,

Jordan